Tuesday, September 8, 2009

It's Just Wrong, I say!

I literally feel like it's just wrong, wrong, wrong of them to even let me back on the internet! Well, not exactly back on..I've been on, just not 'blogging' on. I'm thinking it's going to take 50 or so posts to catch up. What's new..you say? Honestly, I'm not sure. On paper I'm still the same person in the same situation of life. Which seems odd, given the chaos and craziness that is every day. Doesn't it seem as though there would be more concrete changes? I guess not. Now that I'm not seeing this blogging thing as a money-making tool, it's really relieved the pressure so I can just be myself. Doubtful there will be many who read this and that's fine (although just in case..I've tried to keep the innocent nameless :-). Perhaps this is where the (albeit anonymously) soul-searching begins.

Having a midlife crisis? Yes, in a manner of speaking. Old enough to be having one? Probably not. I take that back...yes, I think I'm actually old enough. How the hell did that happen? I feel like lately, this is the epitome of my life...how did I get to this place? Is this really what I signed up for? Am I happy with this?

Not quite up for pondering anything this deep at this particular moment..at least not without a huge fatty (which I do not do), an entire pack of smokes (which I gave up), or several glasses of wine (which is difficult to drink living with an alcoholic.) Looks like I'll have to get back to you...